Wait

"Wait."

It's the answer we hate to hear from God the most. When we are earnestly seeking direction from the Lord we want a clear path to follow, we don't want to hear the word wait. When we are asking God for something we want to hear him say "yes" or we can even resign ourselves to a "no" and accept that God has something different in mind. Waiting is hard, but for a long time that has been my word from God.

I am not a patient person and God knows this because he created me and he knows my every thought. I HATE waiting and if waiting on something you know is going to happen isn't bad enough, try waiting to even know what's going to happen! That is the place I'm in right now, I am waiting. Until recently, I have been overwhelmed and panicked because I don't know where I am supposed to go or what I am supposed to do with my life and I felt like the Lord wasn't listening to my cries for direction. He was, I'm the one who wasn't listening. When I was feeling lost and out of place God heard my prayers and he simply whispered to my heart "wait", I just didn't hear it. But I finally heard it and at first I didn't like it. I thought "God why are you telling me to wait, isn't that what I've been doing? I've been waiting for you to tell me if my decisions are right!" And then it hit me, I had never really been waiting at all because while I was "waiting" I was making my own plans and expecting the Lord to tell me I was right. God wants me to wait on his perfect timing, He has a plan for my life, I just have to follow it. When I realized this, "wait" became no longer like a jail sentence to me, but a comfort and a promise of more to come. So this is me, waiting on the Lord and his promises. It's still not always easy to do, but every day I wait is a day closer to what God has in store for me.

Confession

So, here's the thing...

I'm basically the worst blogger ever.

Yep, that's me, just write it on my forehead with a sharpie.

You see, I'm not very good at keeping up with things like this, or eating healthy, or working out... but I digress. Anyway, I'm going to do my best to blog more this summer! You can look forward to posts about my nannying job, kids camp at my church, my sister's wedding, and the antics of my crazy friends and family just to name a few upcoming topics. Along with keeping up with this blog I have a few other things on my summer to do list (some are more likely to happen then others but hey, aim high right?). Some are fun things, some are practical, some are so my brain doesn't turn to mush over the summer while my mostly companion is a two year old boy. So, you can probably count on a few blog posts about my attempts to create new habits, nurture new interests, and in general be productive. If I keep up with my blogging that is ;)